I'm excited, though, not because I'm going home this weekend, but because my stepbrother is gonna be there, and I suspect that we'll be talking a great deal about my EP. We've been e-mailing a lot this week, and he seems to be pretty excited about working on it. Meanwhile, I've been contemplating what to do in the meantime, musically speaking.
It's no surprise that I've been in a creative rut for the last few months, and only now is it starting to really get annoying. I'm really looking forward to making this EP - I think that Adam's gonna bring some really interesting ideas to the table, and the end result is gonna be quite surprising. However, we're not gonna get started until at least March. So I've got all this time in the meantime, and I really wanna DO something. But I don't know what I want to do.
I've been kicking around the idea of writing an album... not a "concept album" - I have neither the lyrical capacity nor the desire to achieve maximum pretentiousness, if I can help it - but something generally cohesive, something that taps into a theme or mood. But that's pretty ambitious for someone who generally doesn't write anything unless there's a last-minute sense of urgency.
Last weekend's jam session started fueling the need for collaboration. I need to work with other people, I think - for whatever reason, I tend to work best when I'm able to bounce ideas off of other people. Jamming to loops is interesting, but ultimately it's restraining because there's no element of surprise. Just playing with a melodic, adventurous bassist (as I did at the jam) totally opened up my guitar playing - all these ideas starting pouring into my head, all these sounds and textures that I normally don't ever pursue when I'm working alone. So I'm also kicking around the idea of joining a pre-existing band. I've been sorta half-heartedly looking at ads in the Village Voice, though, and absolutely nothing has caught my attention - which also makes me wonder how I'm gonna start recruiting for my own band, if I ever get the balls to put that in motion.
Oh, one other thing - I think I'm gonna stop smoking pot for a little while. True, I can't really afford it anyway, and I've spent the last 2 months or so smoking the resin out of my bowl, but I think it's become too distracting, anyway. I go home, I get high, and suddenly it's 11:15pm and I've only taken one shoe off since I sat down. This is not a good approach for someone who needs to get creative again.
Anyway. Here's what I'm DEFINITELY gonna do - when I get back from my mom's house on Sunday, I'm gonna get me some blank tapes and start doing some conceptual, 4-tracked demos of the songs I'm gonna record for the EP; hopefully that process will jumpstart some creativity. Because, otherwise, I might as well sell my guitar and give up.