March 28th, 2001

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Rough morning, thus far, but more in terms of trying to stay awake than anything else. Had some drinks with the woman (well, I got drunk, at any rate), some good conversations - she even showed me some videotapes of pre-college theater she had done - and then several rounds of much needed lovin'. So it's rough, but I've got this sleepy sort of glow happening, which I suppose might look a little creepy, seeing as the glow is coming from a very disheveled-looking person. If this paragraph has made any sense, I'm counting it as a personal victory and a triumph against the tyranny of sleepy Wednesday mornings at work.

My mom called me this morning at my office at about 9:01am, scaring me half to death - I thought my grandmother had died, or something to that effect.

Christ. I've had it with this place. One of the other admins that I work with isn't coming today, which is perfect, because she had a lot of work to do that now I have to do to cover her. This is total bullshit. I'll post more when I finish this thing I have to do - I actually do have some non-work-related crap to talk about.
  • Current Music
    Pavement, "Terror Twilight"
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yet even more bitching about work and writer's block

Is LJ down today? I can't tell whether my network is down or if LJ is down. It becomes much harder to goof off at work if LJ is on the fritz. How many times can you check what's happening in the world of baseball before you go insane?

My boss is such an ass, he's making me call people on his shitlist to bitch them out about mistakes that he made.

Wish I had brought some Beatles CDs to work. Really in the mood to hear "Abbey Road". TSAC will do for now.

I remember very distinctly the first time I ever heard TSAC. My friend Rey put on the song "Jacking the Ball" without telling me what it was. I was floored. It was so simple and unpretentious, even though Rey had kinda prepared me for an indie-rock-Chicago-hipper-than-thou sort of vibe. Soon after, I was at my friend John's apartment, incredibly high, and he played me "Nassau" and "The Biz". I freaked out. I ran down to Other Music and bought everything I could get my hands on; I don't think "The Fawn" had come out yet. I spent the better part of the rest of the year listening almost exclusively to TSAC records, so much so that whenever I sat down to write music, I'd get frustrated because it wasn't sounding as pleasing. Drove me crazy. I ended up forcing myself to not listen to them for 6 months or so. I've since gotten out of that particular block - now I'm just in a general, unmotivated block.

Which has been getting on my nerves a bit, too, and I know I've mentioned the block and my annoyance with it in pretty much every entry... I mean, aside from the fact that I spent nearly $2K on recording equipment a few months back, and about $100 to get the stuff I needed to fix it specially shipped from the manufacturer, and now it's all collecting dust in my room - recently I find that I'll pick up a guitar and just not want to play anything.

Shit. Gotta go deal w/ some emergency here.
  • Current Music
    The Sea and Cake, "Oui"
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Yeah, I should probably see a doctor.

I'm not feeling very well right now, and it's the kind of thing that I'm starting to get a little concerned about. It's... well, it's hard to describe, but it's sort of like how a balloon might feel when it's approaching its maximum inflation point. Pressure building. This has happened like maybe 4 or 5 times in the last month. I can't tell if it's cigarette-related, or stress-related, or work-related... it just happens, totally randomly, and then it eventually goes away. Same sort of thing's been happening with one of my teeth, although that's the kind of thing where it aches for a week and then it's gone for two months. The problem is, I have no health insurance, and when you're as broke as I am and getting paid by the hour, it's hard to rationalize going to the doctor when you're sorta not sure if something maybe might be wrong w/ you...