I am pretty much flat broke, for the next 2 weeks, at least. It'd be one thing if I were just sitting on my ass in my apartment, but I've been working as much as I can for the last month, and I never anticipated this happening. If I can spend under $7 a day, I might be able to make it without being severely malnourished.
This is not what I signed up for when I quit full-time work. This is, in fact, the total opposite. And I'm not writing any hit songs, either. It's just incredibly frustrating to be working all the time and to see absolutely zero in terms of payoff.
And let's be clear about this - I HATE money, I hate everything about it, it drives me crazy. I'm not asking for a million dollars, or a trust fund, or even spare change. But there's gotta be a better way than what's going on right now. This is embarassing. I'm 25 years old, for crying out loud - there is no reason why I should be this fucking broke.
Somehow, this venting did not make me feel much better.