1. Psyched. For my upcoming birthday/Hanukkah/Christmas barage, my mom has offered to pay for the first $1000 of a new computer. I'm getting a Dell Dimension 4300 with Pentium 4, 1.8Ghz, 40GB, 256MB, NVIDIA GeForce2 VideoCard, yadda yadda yadda.
1a. Psyched, part 2. Seeing Jane's Addiction tonight.
1b. Psyched, part 3. Yankees came all the back to get a Game 5 tonight in the Bronx. There are a lot of rabid trash-talking A's fans on the mlb community who will have to eat a lot of crow, if all goes well...
2. Bummed. Giants lost a heartbreaker yesterday.
3. Nervous. Various rumors of impending NYC attacks. Goddammit, you terrorist fucks, lay off attacking NYC already. Sheesh. I'm fucking tired of having a nervous breakdown every other hour.
3a. Nervous, part 2. Gig on Thursday. Will anybody show up? Does anybody feel like leaving their apartments?
4. Energized. Had a great meeting with my stepbrother on Saturday night; we talked for hours about everything. It was great to see him, and it was even greater hanging out in his recording studio/apartment. He played me a lot of the stuff he's working on now, which sounds outrageous. And I know - now, those of you that know me personally know that I'm somewhat lacking in self-confidence - but I'm fucking posiive that when we finally get together to make my record in November, it's gonna kick some serious booty. Trust me on this. It's gonna be insane. And when I get my computer, I'll be able to work digitally, and I'll be able to finally have my tunes on a CD in somewhat pro-sounding form.
Postscript to 3. Late last night, as I was getting ready to go to sleep, I was watching a CNN program about how Islamic Fundamentalists re-interpret the Koran to further their own goals (i.e., did you know that "jihad" does not actually translate into "holy war", but rather "struggle"? or that suicide is expressly forbidden?), and it occured to me that I'm not sure the USA will ever be able to really defeat these guys. I'm not saying we're gonna lose - I mean, we have more money, more weapons, the support of the collective world, we flat-out outnumber them - but when you're dealing with people who are prepared for martyrdom at a moment's notice, it's not so easy to get them to back down. Which leads me to conclude, sadly, that this war will indeed go on for a long time, and when it's over, we'll be hated by these people more than ever.