Still frustrated, though. This lyric block is getting disgusting. And it occurs to me that there's a very simple reason why I don't think I have anything to say, which is basically that I haven't really accumulated a great deal of life experience. [Whoa. Right now "Like Spinning Plates" just came on, which is just ridiculously beautiful. Please pardon any sudden bursts of incoherency.] 2001 has been one of my most anti-social years, girlfriend-notwithstanding. If I ever plan on writing great lyrics - or, hell, even good ones - I've gotta get out of my apartment and, if not actively participate in something, at least have something happen. Right, of course, I sorta DID see the whole 9/11 thing with my own eyes, and as a result I've been part of a huge moment in history, but even in spite of that I feel like I don't have any perspective on it - I'm still inside it, I'm not in any position to look at it and what it's done to the people around me. I also don't really know that I want to sing about that stuff, anyway.
Perhaps, it ultimately comes down to this: I should probably open myself up a bit more. I do a pretty good job of clamping down on a lot of emotions and thoughts; the lyric-writing process actually illustrates this a little too literally, as I edit myself even before my pen scrapes along the page. I don't even know if I can quantify how many words I've stopped myself from writing, but I'm sure that over the last 2 years it could've filled up a lot more than 1 blank journal.
Case in point. I just finished writing the sentence "One of these days I'm gonna write my new year's resolutions here" but I don't really feel like getting into that right now. And I'm asking myself why not. And the truth is: I don't know. So maybe we'll toss out some ideas.
1. 1 gig every month, at least.
2. Start and finish the EP.
3. Make more money without losing any more sanity.
4. ACCUMULATE MORE EXPERIENCES.
5. See my girlfriend more than once a week.
6. Put a band together and gig before the end of the year.
7. Every week, put a $20 bill safely away in my desk and don't touch it.
8. Eat better.
9. See a doctor.
10. Get glasses fixed.
11. Pay off debts.
That sounds like enough to start on.